It's November, what?? Life is ridiculous.
School is making me feel incredibly stupid. I CANNOT wait until this semester is over. I just can't stand being in school anymore; 'learning' is not for me. As awful and stupid as that makes me sound, it's true. My brain hurts.
Boys are shitty. Girls are shitty. Relationships will never work out, will they? Well, some do good. Others just can't commit, or atleast they don't want to. I think that might be me; no matter how much I complain about wanting to be with someone, anyone...but when someone pops up that is interested in me, I manage to find any reason to be turned away. I need to stop being so picky, or better yet, stop going after the assholes. Lately, the trend is that I cannot stay away from the adorable guys that poof! are surprise, surprise, just assholes. MAE anyone? Let's not talk about it.
So, I was offered a job for my cooperative program next semester. Starting january I'll be working full time for Auditors of Public Accounts for the state in Hartford. I'm completely unmotivated lately, so it's kind of shocking that I was actually able to land a job. I guess people who really hate themselves can still manage to sell themselves, hmm? This is kind of exciting because I will finally get the chance to give accounting a run, since I've hated it so much lately, it would be nice to know whether I actually enjoy working with my major. Plus, I will only be taking two courses next semester, which will hopefully be doable while working. I mean already have been working 25 hour weeks ontop of five courses this semester, so it can only be considered a break next semester.
Friday I went to new york with my dear ashley to see Mae and Anberlin. Great concert, but I think I'm getting a little too old for the crowd scene. I was up pretty darn close, but I don't know if being smooshed in the crowd is worth it? I just try to close my eyes and get into the music, and I can forget it for the most part...until someone lands on my head from crowd surfacing, ha. Anyways, after Mae performed we hung around the merchandise area, and whoooo showed up? Sexy, sexy, sexy Mae boys. =) Dave Elkins, will you please have my babies? Next time I talk to him, I promise I'll be able to carry an intelligent conversation, and not get start struck. I just can't help it. You listen to this beautiful voice 20 times a day, and then you finally see them in person and not get awe struck? I think not, lol.
<3 rachey